Wow, I didn't know there was a journal out there for me.
Can a person ever get over this?
No, I'm not going to write that. I'm here to rant.
I've failed every single class since third grade. Before then I was getting straight A's. I was a gifted child going to a school for gifted kids. Somewhere along there I started having really bad anxiety and stopped doing my homework. The bad grades led to more anxiety, leading to depression. By fifth grade I was the kid sitting under her desk and mutilating herself during recess. The internet became my distraction from the world. I've since started therapy and meds. My therapist is trying to help me do my homework and get rid of my addiction to the internet. It's not working.
My dad called me five times today to ask me if I was doing my homework. My friend has been here making sure I was doing it. I'm not doing it. My dad's going to be here any minute and I'm really paranoid about him seeing me typing away here, but I'm still here.
My therapist said, "You know you're probably going to flunk out of high school." Life is really fun.
I am so lazy and distracted, okay?
I just make up for it all at the very last second.
Does it still count?
I BET YOU FUCKERS WILL BANISH ME LIKE THE ELITIST PIGS YOU ARE.